Meanderings of Z.

Location: United States

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Fog Light

No, not in the car sense. It was really foggy here the other evening. The orange glow coming from the community street lamps was really haunting. Of course, that made me think to leap from my comfortable chair, leave the television behind, hunt down the tripod and run outside with my handy digital camera.

Unfortunately, I don't have a remote shutter release (yet that is), and my digital camera doesn't have a "Bulb" setting (so you can't hold the shutter open), but the pictures convey a bit of what it was like. Albeit, not exactly what I hoped for, but that is why you practice.

Slide Show.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006


Timing is everything. At least that is what they say. I have always had a fascination with time. An artificial horizon that divides the past, future, and right now. Artificial in the sense that man (or woman) could have divided up in really any way. The fact that we have so many days in a year, or days in a week, or even minutes in an hour is somewhat arbitrary. Nevertheless, whatever has transpired is in the past, and what is yet to come is completely up to you.

This is where the concept of timing comes into play. What do you decide, and when should you decide it? Two fairly simply questions that can have huge ramifications on your quality of life, health, financial position, and overall future. For me, timing has worked out fairly well in my professional life. I have been able to work on interesting projects, learning very cool technologies, and work with fun and brilliant people. Other aspects of my life haven't always worked out so well. For example, I bought a car once because the one I had needed a lot of work and I didn't have any money. At the time it was literally cheaper for me to buy a new car than get the one I had fixed. Of course, I ended up hating the car I bought, and 5 months later went out a bought a new version of the one I originally tossed out. In the end, this whole episode ended up costing a lot more than getting the original version fixed.

Of course, as time passes your life is constantly changing. The number of variables that help you determine your course of action when answering the questions above change, and in fact are almost always in motion. These changes can have a profound impact on you as a person. For example, once you have a family decisions don't just affect you anymore. Perhaps the chances you take with regards to work can't be as risky. Not only in terms of financial issues, but in terms of your health and well being. This includes your quality of life and your ability to balance work life with family life. As you age you start to worry more about your physical health, getting ready to retire, getting your final wishes in order, and hopefully ensuring that you have no unfinished loops to close with friends and loved ones.

So, the complexity of all of this is how do you make the best possible decisions, at the most appropriate time? Chaos theory and non-linear equations would dictate that you can't determine an optimal time. Is this true? Are we really out of control in some respects all the time? Can't our sub-conscious help tell us when we need to act, and in what direction?

Monday, February 13, 2006

What have I forgotten?

Do you ever feel that you have forgotten something? At times, usually when I am attempting to fall asleep, I get this overwhelming feeling that I have either forgotten something important, or failed to do something I was suppose to do.

It seems to be centered on the past, sometimes the distant past, and sometimes some event that was fairly recent. The strange thing is I am not sure what triggers this panic. Have I really forgotten something important? Have I neglected to finish something I had planned to complete? I am starting to think that it is my subconscious telling me that I made a horrible decision. It always seems to occur when I am trying to sleep, so this could make sense. As I relax, my subconscious starts to process recent events, or even really old events. It starts to look at the decision trees and determine, based on all the possible outcomes, how the one that materialized weighs in as the better outcome. In short, my subconscious is trying to file events into “well done”, or “you’re a moron” folders.

The scary thing is I am not sure I always am aware of the final outcome. I mean, I feel the “panic” that I forgot something, but I never get the warm fuzzy that I figured out what it was. How am I supposed to go through this filing cabinet when I don’t know something new has been filed?

Friday, February 03, 2006

Paradise - Dominica

Overall, my cruise experience was up and down. In a lot of cases that is a literal interpretation as the boat was rocking a lot. However, the islands we saw were beautiful. One in particular stood out as an almost un-touched rain forest paradise playground. The island is called Dominica and sits between St. Thomas and Barbados.

In an attempt to share some of what I saw, I have uploaded a slide show to Flickr. You can view the slide show by clicking on the "Slide Show" link I have provided at the end of this posting. Unfortunately several of these photos are out of focus. This was caused by our rapid decent out of the mountains in a somewhat runaway death bus.

Please enjoy and try to escape.

Slide Show.